Again but sooner this time.

I'd fall inlove with you over and over again; in every lifetime, at chance I'd get... my only chage would be to do it sooner so we'd be able to spend more time together. How quickly do you want to spend eternity with the one? as quick as possible seems crazy, because you have eternity. But I don't want to experience it without you. I'm mot scared or ashamed to go it alone, I want to just spend it with you, experience it with you. Make the memories; hear the laughs...

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